My Facebook post last week read, “God never forgets me and cares so much about me. I am so unworthy of such love from the Creator of the universe.” I get so frustrated with myself when I find my self living independent from God. That happened to me last week as I felt overwhelmed and unable to continue down the path God had lead me on. What I love about God is that He loved me through this and allowed me to see it was because I was living independent from Him. He could have waited for me to realize it on my own but He loves me so much that He was willing to show me and to carry me back to the path.
Serving God is not about working together with Him as a team. It’s about allowing Him to lead and being obedient to follow Him.
John 1:3 says, Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made. In him was life, and that life was the light of men. The light shines in the darkness, but the darkness has not understood it.
I questioned everything I was doing last week because I felt the weight of it all on me and realized that I am incapable of doing this. I, Michelle Pitman, cannot fulfill all the demands of ministry but God can.
My husband and I were talking this morning about how the disciples were face to face with Jesus and over and over again they were blinded to His greatness. They witnessed him turn water into wine, heal the lame, feed the 5,000 and when they saw Him walk on water they were still terrified. How could they have seen all these miracles and not accept that Jesus could walk on water? My life is so much like this. I have seen the hand of God in powerful ways firsthand yet I still am like the disciples in that boat terrified. We must live lives that are expectant of God to do amazing things.
My purpose is to be so focused on God and knowing Him more so that when I face storms in life I can rest in knowing that my life is in the hand of the Creator of the Universe. It is there that I can wait in expectation for God to act and to see Him in powerful ways.